We all have that place we go to when life seems too much to bear. You know, that place where everywhere you go, the air breathes “It’s going to be okay. Peace. Rest.” I found that place for me recently. I mean, I know God’s peace in the storm from all my previous travels with the Lord, but God brought me to a new place—a new level.
It started about 1-1/2 years ago. I was in a job that I really liked, but I was ready to move forward, and I didn’t see that happening where I was. On top of that, my son, my baby, was getting ready to move on to the next chapter of his life and I knew in a few months I’d be on my own again—an empty-nester. I had learned how to navigate through a plethora of life’s challenges and tearful disappointments, but this I wasn’t prepared for. What was I going to do with myself now after caring for a family for almost 30 years? I had no idea where to even begin. So, I began to pray.
I felt as if the Lord was telling me I needed to go back to school. I attempted to do this a year earlier but was unable to work out the financing for the degree plan I really wanted to obtain. Then it finally occurred to me. I had started a business degree 30+ years earlier. I had 20+ years in business. I finally figured out what I needed to do—go back to school and finish my accounting degree.
In the process of that, I began to look for work that would help me grow in an area that would offer longevity. After being laid off four times before in my life, I was more than ready to find stable, long-term employment and prosperity. On top of that, I was able to keep working in my previous job part-time. Life was really looking up for us and I was more than grateful!
The transition was not difficult. Learning a new job, with 12 hours of junior-level business classes proved to be quite the challenge. But, I was up for the challenge. After a couple of months, I finally felt more at ease and was beginning to walk on my own, feeling as if I was achieving an appropriate learning curve on this new land I was traveling. As an additional bonus, I was finally in a good position to buy a home. My dreams were coming true—finally!
Without warning came the tussle and tug. If you don’t know what I’m talking about, I mean the tussle and tug in my spirit. That sense of knowing something wasn’t quite right. I prayed and then I battled, sensing something was trying very hard to get me unsettled. Then I heard the Lord speak, softly and gently. “Which do you like more? Accounting or ministry?” “Ministry, of course,” I answered.
Three weeks later, the Lord woke me up insisting that I fast and pray, starting immediately. So, I did. That day after work, my employer came into my office, shut the door and politely and kindly informed me that it was nearing the end of my 90-day probation. It wasn’t working out as well as I thought. I was released from my employment. Just like that. Two weeks before Christmas. Perplexed and shocked, I just sat there and listened to his kind explanation. I was stunned. I really liked working there. I really like and respect the people I was working with. I must interject, I know I walk in God’s favor because they allowed me to stay until the end of the year, which is almost unheard of.
That very afternoon, my heart sank again. I received a text from the mortgage company who was working with me to buy my long-awaited dream come true. I had to tell her I was laid off and would have to put off my dream of owning my own home yet again for an undetermined length of time. I was crushed and couldn’t contain the tears any longer.
Needless to say, I wasn’t sure what I was going to do next. The loss of income was drastic. I couldn’t even find the words to formulate the question “Why” to God. After a few days, I did manage to say, “Okay. Now, what am I supposed to do?” God’s response? “I called you to be my minister. I set you apart. Remember, this is why I moved you to Oklahoma.” Dozens of memories flooded my mind. I remembered when God first told me to go to Victory Christian Center. I remember feeling so out of place, but knowing this was exactly where God wanted me to be. I remembered hearing about Victory Bible College. At the time, I dismissed any notion of entering this college because of all the Bible classes I took studying for to become an ordained minister with Assemblies of God. Then I began to hear about Oral Roberts University (ORU). In retrospect, I guess a person would have to be blind not to notice the strong connection between Victory Christian Center and ORU, but nothing particularly personal was clicking for me.
Then God did what he does so very well. He spelled it out for me. I called you to be a prophet. I sent you to Victory to walk under that mantel. I sent you to ORU to prepare. My response, “I thought you wanted me to finish my business degree after you told me you would open doors for ministry for me through business.” To which God responded, “That’s not exactly what I had in mind.”
I threw up my hands. I give up. I realize I may not verbalize every single syllable of my questions to God. Honestly, who does? My thoughts were on him. My heart was seeking after him. I followed what he told me. But……did I really press in to get that confirmation? God’s word says, man makes his plans, but God ordains his steps. Hmmmmm. Ugh! Here we go again.
I realized God does indeed have business in my future with a personal business he has given me, and through this there will be open doors for ministry. Ultimately, I had to admit he never told me to go to school to get my business degree. He was more immovable on the point of his desire for me to prepare for what he has called me to do than I remember him ever being before. Oh Wow! This put new meaning in the words, “He leadeth me, he leadeth me, by his own hand he leadeth me. His faithful follower I would be for by his hand he leadeth me.” Yes, Katrina. God certainly did tell you. He certainly did lead you to exactly where he wanted you to be. You just missed the correct combination of steps leading to the ultimate prize just a bit.
It took about two seconds and I was talking with Oral Roberts University about a degree plan change. To my relief, mission accomplished in about a week. I had instant and complete peace. I was able to continue working at my previous employment, resuming my previous responsibilities with a little more income, but not exactly in the same. This time I would be contract labor. In this way, I would be more available for ministry opportunities.
What did I learn through this? God is sovereign. He leadeth me. He is absolutely, without a doubt serious about fulfilling his purpose in his children’s life. He is ever present. He is steadfast. When daddy says now, he means now. When daddy says he will cause you to triumph and prosper, he will. When daddy says he gives you peace that passes all understanding, he does. I raised my hands and said, “I surrender. I get it. I’m yours. I’m done trying to figure it out. It. Is. Finished.” It’s not like I ever got up on any morning and consciously said, “I’m going to do my own thing today.” God forbid!! Thank God, he does not give up on us. He asks us not to give up him and trust him with his plan.
I refuse to stop dreaming. I still make my declarations every day. I know God has great things for me. I know he has a great future for me. I even still take time occasionally to look at the local housing market and I’m relentless in telling God which homes I would love for him to get for me. As it happens, I found a beautiful dream come true. I’ve given it to God and I know it is planted firmly in the palm of his hand.
What was so pivotal for me was within this, I saw a sign that said, “Tranquility Hollow.” As I looked at the scenery, I imagined walking through the trails and feeling the quiet breezes calming the stresses of life. I saw myself gazing at the still waters and green pastures, seeing myself resting in this place. There is an old hymn called “Till The Storm Passes By.” The last part of the verse says, “Hold me fast, let me stand, in the hollow of Thy hand. Keep me safe, till the storm passes by.” That was it. It was settled for me. I decided “Tranquility Hollow” would be my forever home. No matter where I lay my head at night, Tranquility Hollow would be where I find my peace and rest in this life. I will see myself resting in the hollow of his hand and walking in his peace no matter the storm—in Tranquility Hollow.
Blessed be the name of the Lord, God Almighty. To Him who was, and is and is forevermore.
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