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That Man

I’m a firm believer it takes a village to raise a child.  Here is a tribute to all the brothers, uncles, dads, step-dads, friends, neighbors, mentors and all those men who have chosen to be a positive influence in a child’s life.

That Man

While visiting my grandchildren recently,

And evening chores were started,

I smiled within myself as I heard, once again,

“I.  Don’t.  Like it.”

 

Then suddenly my little one faced me,

And pointing across the room,

With bold disdain this child proclaimed,

“That Man told me to soak this bowl in water.

He knows it’s gonna make my job take longer.”

 

I wasn’t trying to interfere, really I wasn’t.

I respect the authority of the home,

But this statement was balling up inside of me.

So, I captured the moment and let my heart flow.

 

Be still, my love, I want you to listen, can your little ears hear me?

With acknowledgement and full attention, then, I continued.

 

When you speak to That Man,

You will show respect,

You will not be rude,

You will be still and listen to what he has to say.

 

That Man is not here in the by and by,

That Man is attentive and awake.

He has earned his place in your life,

And he has committed to make you feel safe.

 

That Man knows the value

Of working hard each day, that

Nothing good in this world is free.

And yes, my love, He’s teaching you

With “chores” you love to hate.

 

That Man works very hard,

To give you a warm place to rest.

That Man sacrificed hopes and dreams,

To help make your life the best.

 

That Man shows you he cares,

By asking “How goes your day today?”

That Man shows his patience,

As he teaches you something new each day.

 

That Man shows his courage

To ride the waves of change,

And helps you overcome

The challenges you face.

 

That Man’s life honors God,

This is plain for all to see.

That Man knows a woman is to be honored,

She is God’s gift to him, do you see?

 

That Man honors his word to God,

And shows you by his example,

Loving your mom is not solely with words,

But also by his actions.

 

That Man battles stress and heartache,

You’ll never know how much,

That Man comes to the aid of others,

My love, have I said enough?

 

In a world where honor, truth and dignity

Face the fiery attack of progression,

That Man knows ultimately,

They still pave the way to freedom,

So listen child, please listen,

Never forget these lessons.

 

I saw my little one’s eyes well up, I saw the heartfelt grace,

“So, little one, do you still think soaking that bowl in water

Makes his joy so complete by making your work take longer?

Take a moment, take a look, and from this bowl of water glean.”

 

That Man knows you will face choices,

That will be difficult to make.

That Man is teaching you to stop and think,

So not a hasty decision you make.

 

Just as filling a food-crusted bowl with water

Helps loosen the dried food with ease,

Filling your heart with truth and restraint

Will loosen temptations filled with lies and deceit.

 

That Man is trying to teach you

How to navigate through this life.

So, allow this water of understanding

To fill the bowl of your heart and mind.

 

Listen to my words,

Let wisdom bring you peace.

May the efforts of That Man

In your heart, forever be seen.

 

That Man, though tired as he may be,

Kneels before the Perfect Father.

Seeking wisdom, mercy and grace,

He asks God how to care for the family

He has been so richly blessed to embrace.

 

That Man loves you, little one,

And one day you will see,

That Man does so much more,

Because greatness in you he sees.

 

One day, when you’re all grown up,

And life has thrown you a curve,

Stop and think about that water filled bowl,

And the wisdom that you learned from

…………………………….That Man.

 

By Katrina Stanley

©02/01/2019

Tranquility Hollow

We all have that place we go to when life seems too much to bear.  You know, that place where everywhere you go, the air breathes “It’s going to be okay.  Peace.  Rest.”  I found that place for me recently.  I mean, I know God’s peace in the storm from all my previous travels with the Lord, but God brought me to a new place—a new level.

It started about 1-1/2 years ago.  I was in a job that I really liked, but I was ready to move forward, and I didn’t see that happening where I was.  On top of that, my son, my baby, was getting ready to move on to the next chapter of his life and I knew in a few months I’d be on my own again—an empty-nester.  I had learned how to navigate through a plethora of life’s challenges and tearful disappointments, but this I wasn’t prepared for.  What was I going to do with myself now after caring for a family for almost 30 years?  I had no idea where to even begin.  So, I began to pray.

I felt as if the Lord was telling me I needed to go back to school.  I attempted to do this a year earlier but was unable to work out the financing for the degree plan I really wanted to obtain.  Then it finally occurred to me.  I had started a business degree 30+ years earlier.  I had 20+ years in business.  I finally figured out what I needed to do—go back to school and finish my accounting degree.

In the process of that, I began to look for work that would help me grow in an area that would offer longevity.  After being laid off four times before in my life, I was more than ready to find stable, long-term employment and prosperity.

It finally happened. After months of sending resumes, I finally found employment in accounting. On top of that, I was able to keep working in my previous job part-time.  Life was really looking up for us and I was more than grateful!!

The transition was not difficult.  Learning a new job, with 12 hours of junior-level business classes proved to be quite the challenge.  But, I was up for the challenge.  After a couple of months, I finally felt more at ease and was beginning to walk on my own, feeling as if I was achieving an appropriate learning curve on this new land I was traveling.  As an additional bonus, I was finally in a good position to buy a home.  My dreams were coming true—finally!

Without warning came the tussle and tug.  If you don’t know what I’m talking about, I mean the tussle and tug in my spirit.  That sense of knowing something wasn’t quite right.  I prayed and then I battled, sensing something was trying very hard to get me unsettled.  Then I heard the Lord speak, softly and gently.  “Which do you like more?  Accounting or ministry?”  “Ministry, of course,” I answered.

Three weeks later, the Lord woke me up insisting that I fast and pray, starting immediately.  So, I did.  That day after work,  I was given a two-week notice I would be released from my employment.  Just like that.  A week and a half before Christmas.  Perplexed and shocked, I just sat there.  I was stunned.  I really liked working there.  Moreover, I really liked and respected the people I was working with—I still do.

That very afternoon, my heart sank again.  I received a text from the mortgage company who was working with me to buy my long-awaited dream come true.  I had to tell her I was laid off and would have to put off my dream of owning my own home yet again for an undetermined length of time.  Yep.  This was too much at one time.

Needless to say, I wasn’t sure what I was going to do next.  The loss of income was drastic.  I couldn’t even find the words to formulate the question “Why” to God.  After a few days, I did manage to say, “Okay.  Now, what am I supposed to do?”  God’s response?  “I called you to be my minister.  I set you apart.  Remember, this is why I moved you to Oklahoma.”  Dozens of memories flooded my mind.

I remembered when God first told me to go to Victory Christian Center.  I remember feeling so out of place, but knowing this was exactly where God wanted me to be.  I remembered hearing about Victory Bible College.  At the time, I dismissed any notion of entering this college because of all the Bible classes I took studying for to become an ordained minister with Assemblies of God. (I’ve since discovered they have many great classes of which I have not taken as of yet.  I’ve decided I will be a life-long learner.)  Then I began to hear about Oral Roberts University (ORU).  In retrospect, I guess a person would have to be blind not to notice the strong connection between Victory Christian Center and ORU, but nothing particularly personal was clicking for me.

Then God did what he does so very well.  He spelled it out for me.  I called you to be a prophet.  I sent you to Victory to walk under that mantel.  I sent you to ORU to prepare.  My response, “I thought you wanted me to finish my business degree after you told me you would open doors for ministry for me through business.”  To which God responded, “That’s not exactly what I had in mind.”

I threw up my hands.  I give up.  I realize I may not verbalize every single syllable of my questions to God.  Honestly, who does?  My thoughts were on him.  My heart was seeking after him.  I followed what he told me.  But……did I really press in to get that confirmation??  God’s word says, man makes his plans, but God ordains his steps.  Hmmmmm.  Ugh!  Here we go again.

I realized God does indeed have business in my future with a personal business he has given me, and through this there will be doors that open for ministry.  In fact, there is no way to quantify how, when or where God will open doors for me for ministry.  Expect the unexpected.  God’s ways are higher than ours, and I will do my best to not limit God.

Ultimately, I had to admit he never told me to go to school to get my business degree.   He was more immovable on the point of his desire for me to prepare for what he has called me to do than I ever remember him being before.  Oh Wow!  This put new meaning in the words, “He leadeth me, he leadeth me, by his own hand he leadeth me.  His faithful follower I would be for by his hand he leadeth me.”  Yes, Katrina.  God certainly did tell you.  He certainly did lead you to exactly where he wanted you to be.  You just missed the correct combination of steps leading to the ultimate prize just a bit.

It took about two seconds and I was talking with Oral Roberts University about a degree plan change.  To my relief, mission accomplished in about a week.  I had instant and complete peace.  I was able to continue working at my previous employment with a few changes, which is a blessing.  This time, I would be more available for ministry opportunities.

What did I learn through this?  God is sovereign.  He leadeth me.  He is absolutely, without a doubt serious about fulfilling his purpose in his children’s life.  He is ever present.  He is steadfast.  “ He determined the times set for them and the exact places where they should live.” (Acts 17:25 NIV).   When daddy says now, he means now.  When daddy says he will cause you to triumph and prosper, he will.  When daddy says he gives you peace that passes all understanding, he does.  And yes, you can be in the center of God’s perfect will and still endure trials and difficult times.

It is said that every cloud has a silver lining. I quickly realized two things:  I firmly believe a person could be fully trained and equipped for certain work, but if God does not want you there, it’s not going to work out as well as it otherwise could.  Without a doubt, I believe this with all my heart.  In addition—as hard as it was to accept that my dream of owning my own home was once again put on the back burner, I was grateful that God, in his mercy, did not allow me to purchase a home I would soon have difficulty maintaining.

I raised my hands and said, “I surrender.  I get it.  I’m yours.  I’m done trying to figure it out.  It.  Is.  Finished.”  It’s not like I ever got up on any morning and consciously said, “I’m going to do my own thing today.”  God forbid!!  Thank God, he does not give up on us.  He asks us not to give up on him and to trust him with his plan.

Even so, I refuse to stop believing.  I still make my declarations every day.  I know God has great things for me.  I know he has a great future for me.  I even still take time occasionally to look at the local housing market and I’m relentless in telling God which homes I would love for him to get for me.  As it happens, I found a beautiful dream come true.  I’ve given it to God and I know it is planted firmly in the palm of his hand.

What was so pivotal for me was within this, I saw a sign that said, “Tranquility Hollow.”  As I looked at the scenery, I imagined walking through the trails and feeling the quiet breezes calming the stresses of life.  I saw myself gazing at the still waters and green pastures, seeing myself resting in this place.  There is an old hymn called “‘Til The Storm Passes By.”  The last part of the chorus says, “Hold me fast, let me stand, in the hollow of Thy hand.  Keep me safe, ‘til the storm passes by.”  That was it.  It was settled for me.  I decided “Tranquility Hollow” would be my forever home.  No matter where I lay my head at night, Tranquility Hollow would be where I find my peace and rest in this life.  I will see myself resting in the hollow of his hand and walking in his peace no matter the storm—in Tranquility Hollow.

I choose to accept and receive every good and perfect gift God wants me to have.  Yes.  I believe that is as it should be, and I will forever sing His praises.

Blessed be the name of the Lord, God Almighty. To Him who was, and is and is forevermore.  God.  Is.  Good.

Stop And Think Before You Act And Speak

The Story of Hezekiah in Isaiah chapter 37-39 is interesting. He disrespected God and led the people of Judah away from him by allowing beliefs and worship of other gods and rituals to be practiced in the land of Judah.

Finally, after God sent many warnings, God said enough is enough and sent the Assyrian army to attack the nation of Judah.

After Hezekiah humbled himself before the holy greatness of God and asked God to deliver them from the Assyrians, God in his goodness and mercy did so.

However, because there are always consequences for our poor choices that come against God, Hezekiah and the people of Judah had to undergo some hard times because they turned away from God.

At one point, Hezekiah became ill and God sent word to Hezekiah through the prophet Isaiah that he would not recover, he should “Put your house in order,” that Hezekiah would die.

Hezekiah cried out to God for mercy and forgiveness, and God granted him 15 years to live, during which time there was peace in the land of Judah.

Unfortunately, because Hezekiah led the nation of Judah away from God, that very act set things in motion that would result in Hezekiah’s children and some of his descendants to suffer greatly at the hand of their enemies.

It’s like our nation, and our families. Our leaders make choices that are self-serving that are against what is ok in God’s eyes. Those choices put our nation in the path of God’s judgment.

We make choices for ourselves that directly and indirectly affect our families—sometimes for generations to come.

We have all gone through the family dynamics of the ill-effects of bad choices, broken trust, disappointments, children gone astray, dragging the family name through the mud—you get my point—we can all relate.

There is forgiveness and restoration from the hand of our loving God. But do not be deceived, God is also a righteous judge and he will not overlook the sin of our mistakes and selfishness forever.

Another question—how long do we harbor the mistake, which serves to hold the emotions hostage? How long do we allow the hurt to fester, just waiting for the opportunity to mercilessly “unload” on someone so they are sure they’re aware of every point by which their poor choice affected them??

And…..what is this teaching our children who are little sponges and hear every whisper whether word or deed??

We cry out to God for grace and mercy. Do we give it??

Think ahead before making choices. What will the outcome be?

I was told once, “There is a limit to what a person can forgive.” I’m sure glad God doesn’t see it that way. We would all be destroyed before we became adults.

My point?? We tell our children to stop and think before they act and speak. But….do YOU practice what you preach. Does being an adult somehow negate your responsibility to do the same??

Teach your children well. Teach them to know about Jesus, because they are going to need him. And as you do, remember that for us to grow beyond our mistakes, someone had to forgive us.

I really do wonder how much better off our world would be if we would simply love well and forgive often. But wait—that’s why Jesus died for us—so we would be able to do just that.

To know God is to love him. To understand him is to walk in his ways. To submit to his holiness is to walk in wisdom.

Holding on for a better tomorrow—choose life today.

Don’t Air Your Dirty Laundry

Don’t Air Your Dirty Laundry!

One of my favorite pastors used to say, “Don’t sweat the small stuff, and it’s all small stuff.” He was a man of honor and integrity and great wisdom.  His life was cut short from leukemia.  In his last message to his beloved congregation, he said, “Don’t air your dirty laundry.”

Recently, my memories traveled back to this time.  The Lord gave me a visual analogy of what Pastor Gary was saying.

Growing up, we would hang our laundry outside on clothes lines, for two reasons:  To save on the electricity expense of using a clothes dryer.  But moreover, there’s just something special the sun and fresh breeze does to make your clothes smell fresh and feel nice.

Naturally, when you hang clothes out on a clothes line, they are clean and freshly washed. The breeze and the sunshine can flow through them and the dampness will dry leaving the clothes feeling fresh and soft against your skin.

You wouldn’t likely hang your dirty laundry out on the line because the heat from the sun would only serve to set the dirt deeper into the fabric.

The same is true when we “air out” or spread out in the open or public our “dirty laundry,” all the faults, the blame games, the mistakes and mishaps and he said, she said, the air of discontentment, dishonor and gross injustices, without first making this a matter of prayer.  In doing so, the heat of people’s emotions and ill-spoken words will only serve to make things worse—more murky and muddy, confused and dirty.

The Word of God tells us in Matthew 18:15 if we have a disagreement with our brother, we are to go to them and talk it through and work it out.  If you are unable to accomplish this, you are to take a witness—someone who can help you see a different perspective to work through the issue.  If you are unable to work it out, you are to just walk away from it and leave it to the Lord to work it out.

When we leave it to the Lord to work it out, he will clean up that “dirty laundry” in such a way all those involved will see how each one has made mistakes, and in the process God will show us how merciful and gracious He is in that he even bothers with us in our arguments, discord and strife.

Wow!  How much easier living in this world would be if we would take off those filthy rags, let God cleanse us and transform us through the washing of his word, then hang them on the clothes line of truth so the light of God’s love and grace can shine through us, rather than continuing to wear the same old dirty clothes over and over.  Whew!

Don’t air your dirty laundry.

 

Remove The Doubt!

On October 11, 2018, the Holy Spirit woke me up at 3:00 a.m.  There was such a stirring of life of God’s power and presence coming to this earth.  He led me to the book of Revelation.  The Lord brought back to me a time 15 years ago when a childhood friend of my daughter’s committed suicide.  We went to the funeral home and I saw what appeared to be his right eye twitch.  I looked away thinking that was my eye twitching.  I looked back and saw his eye twitch again.  I was so perplexed.  I didn’t really understand what I was seeing.  That night, I had a dream.  This young man was walking down the street I lived on.  There was no one stirring about, no cars driving down the otherwise busy street or walking about.  He came to my house and knocked on my door.  I’ve often thought of that time and wondered had I had an inkling of what was going on, could I have done something to have helped that young man choose to live?  The devastation of the family and his classmates were overwhelming and indescribable.  I spent many hours listening, loving and encouraging my daughter and her friends through this devastating time.  So many unanswered questions with no real understanding why this young man felt so hopeless in disparity.  I remember the stories his friends told of how he would take the phone to his room so he could reach out to his friends at night.  Why didn’t he reach out to his friends that night??  What happened??  Such a difficult time.

That morning on October 11, 2018, the Lord spoke to me and said, “You ask me to give you signs, wonders and miracles that will raise the dead to life, but you have doubt in your heart.”

Then the Lord moved me forward to another time about 11 years ago when I was at a church and the Lord kept bringing back the time of this boy’s death.  So much so, I told a few ladies at the church about my experience and I said, “It looked real to me.”  I noted I had learned about the experience of a man named Smith Wigglesworth who is noted for God using him to bring life back into a person after they died and had been dead for a while.  The women said they knew who he was.  But regarding my experience noting the twitching of his eye, one woman said, “No.  It couldn’t have been.”  I left it at that, still not fully understanding what God was telling me.

The Lord showed me how a seed of doubt was planted in me at that time, without me even realizing what was happening.  The Lord spoke to me again and said, “Get rid of that seed of doubt.”  I did so immediately and confessed that I know nothing is impossible with God.

Later that morning, at Victory Christian Center, I attend early morning prayer.  There is a time of worship and devotion before we start intercessory prayer. During that time of meditation and worship, the Holy Spirit brought back to me that a couple weeks earlier I saw in the spirit angles around about us in the room and they touched people with their wings.  The Word of God tells us in Malachi chapter 4 that “For you who revere my name, the sun of righteousness will rise with healing in its wings.”  He heals us and he gives us the anointing to lay hands on others so they too will be healed.  He does all of this and keeps angles around us to guard us and watch over us–even when we are unaware.

This same morning, as the Lord was speaking and revealing so much to me, he reminded me of a few days earlier while I was sitting at my desk at work, the devil was doing his normal and taunting and bringing back garbage in my past, from which I know I have long since been forgiven, delivered, healed, redeemed and long since transformed into newness in my life.  I took authority, looked up from my computer and said, “Devil, you’re such a liar.”  I heard in the spirit “Humph.  We’ll see.”  I said, “Back atcha!” Instantly, I saw the heavens open up.  I saw trumpets blowing, angles singing “Hosanna, Glory to God in the Highest.”  The heavens rejoice when we stand in our authority and take dominion over the enemy who attacks us and when we triumph over the ill-effects of this world.

At the end of prayer that morning on October 11, Pastor Sharon allowed me to share what God had been telling me, the dreams, the trumpets and the angles and that I saw Jesus standing in front of me with his arms held out from front of him, saying “Come to me, I will give you rest.  When you ask, I will give it to you.  Do not doubt.”

God is pouring out his spirit on all men and signs, wonders and miracles will follow.  God is drawing us out, separating us with preparation for such a time as this and the time to come.  God is drawing people out of the darkness into the light of his salvation.  We are God’s chosen vessels to share the love and light of Christ that we know is the truth that sets us free.  God is calling us to a higher level of trust and faith to believe him for the power that will raise the dead to life and bring healing in the lives of people around the world.  God says, “You say nothing is impossible for me, yet you decide you want to pick and choose what you think I will and will not do.  Will you not believe?  I Am That I Am.”

My encounter with God was so profound.  It was so remarkable.  His presence was so strong and every word that was spoken and every prayer that was prayed that Thursday morning in prayer was led by the Holy Spirit, centered around those words.  God’s power is coming forth.  It is coming in fire and the fire of his love.  A great revival is breaking forth.  A great harvest of souls is coming into the Kingdom of Heaven.  We are God’s chosen few.  He has called us out and within us he is building up an army that will go forth and take back the lands God has given us and take dominion over this earth.  He will cause us to triumph and prosper.   All for the purpose of salvation.  All for the purpose of setting captives free.  All to show the world that God is God and he is all powerful.  The last days are upon us.  Remove the doubt!

A Call To Arms


A Call To Arms

Early in the morning, on September 23, 2018, I had a dream.  I saw a community with a housing area to the right, a large, open green grassy field about the size of a football field, and to the left, there was a community center.  It was a town of thousands of people, but there were only three or four people outside in the field.  It was at night.  Across the sky flew a flying object that looked like something you would see in a science fiction movie.  I likened similar in appearance to the under water vessel in the movie 10,000 Leagues Under The Sea.  It flew across the field and crashed into the top of a building.  Immediately, all throughout this community an invasion of fear, doubt and mind control was unleashed with all sorts of calamities and catastrophes.

Then I found myself inside the community center where everyone in this community gathered.  Everyone was in shock and kept saying, “What are we going to do?”  Scenes flashed back and forth revealing a plethora of various attacks on different people.  I then saw a pile of school books that had collected dust and realized because of this attack, young people had gotten distracted, off track and laid aside their studies, goals, hopes and dreams for temporal, fleeting gains offered by the world.  I was then approached by a woman who was beautiful and was adorned with fine jewelry and makeup.  She was outgoing and carried herself as if she owned the world.  There was then a box full of lipstick. A frenzy ensued when other women tried to find the exact color and kind of lipstick this woman was wearing, believing if they wore it they would “be like her” and “have what she has.”

At this point, I was led outside and went across the field to the housing area to find people sleeping.  I sent out a call to arms, for which a young man, an older youth, jumped up and armed himself with weapons of warfare that one would use in a battle as if being sent off to war—only this was a war that would be fought in our homeland, not across the seas.

As I was walking back to the community center, I was stopped by a group of people who were frantic and trying to decide what their next move would be, but felt powerless to do anything.  I was trying to direct and help people come out from under fear and doubt and take action to escape the chaos inflicting this community.

I looked to my right and saw a silver car, like a limousine.  It looked like an executive’s car.  You couldn’t see anyone, but you knew they were responsible for the mind control and chaos and they were in control.  With whatever method they were using, they were controlling the minds and emotions of many in this community.

We knew the only way we would find safety is to go into the hills and mountains.  I went back into the community center and many people had already left.  I was helping a family gather their things so we could leave and go up to the hills.  An elderly woman suddenly developed foot pain and she had a very difficult time walking.  She told everyone to go on ahead, that she would not be able to keep up.  I was becoming more angry at the rate of disability that was taking people over.  I went outside to go back to the housing area and was stopped by a woman who looked wiry and out of her mind.  She looked at me and said, “I didn’t hurt that woman’s foot,” and she laughed with a wicked laugh and rolled her eyes around. Oh, the deceptions, lies and arrogance  of this woman who was giddy and proud because she was able to render this elderly woman unable to walk well.  This was clearly a demon who appeared as a woman.  Then, I woke up from the dream.

God revealed many things to me as a result of this dream.  In the beginning, in a town of thousands of people, only a few were outside watching and therefore, were able to see the attack taking place. Matthew 26:41 tells us to “watch and pray so that you will not fall into temptation.  The spirits it willing, but the body is weak.”  We are all called to take up arms, watch and pray, and put on the full armor of God so we may withstand the attacks of the enemy when they come.

The woman’s foot being hurt was symbolic of how the enemy will look for any open door, any opportunity to attack a weak area in our lives.

There is a great attack on people’s mind in our nation and the nations around the world. We are in the last days.  Isaiah 5:20 says, “They say that what is right is wrong and what is wrong is right; that black is white and white is black; bitter is sweet and sweet is bitter.” 2 Timothy 3 gives a clear picture of what so many in our society has become today.  Lawlessness will run rampant. The attacks of the enemy will become so intense that people will literally be run out of their communities and head for the hills, as Jesus described in Mark 13 and verse 14-18.

God is putting out a call to arms.  I have heard the song “People get ready, Jesus is coming, soon we’ll be going home” over and over in my head.  I was reminded of the many dreams I’ve had of a great dragon flying in the air and mass destruction to our cities and buildings.  I was reminded of a dream I had of a great battle in the Valley of Defeat where there was so much blood shed there were literal pools of blood standing in the field.  It was horrible.  I’ve seen and smelled a glimpse of what hell is like—the black so black it is suffocating. The stench so putrid it would make you want to vomit, and the screams, screeches and groanings so terrifying it would make your skin crawl. Torment.  Eternal torment. The torment will be such you wish you could die, but it will never happen.  Hell is eternal torment.

I’ve also seen heaven. I’ve seen the still waters and the tall, green grassy meadows of the peaceful place promised to those who accept the sacrifice Jesus made for them. I’ve seen a huge tree with green leaves with many, many branches, likened to the tree  of life. I’ve seen life restored to the youthfulness of years gone by.  I’ve seen the sick restored to beauty and life while holding the hand of Jesus.  Heaven is real.  Hell is real.

God is putting out a call to repentance.  God says, “If my people will humble themselves and pray, seek my face, turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven and heal their land.”  “If my people.”  Imagine what a difference it would make in this world if only God’s people would join together in unity and pray and seek God’s will and not our own selfish personal agendas.

“If my people.”  “If my people.”   God created us all.  But God says, “If my people.”  Even God has made a distinction between those who are “his people” and those who are not.

Here’s how simple it is.  Just say, “Jesus, I need you.  Please forgive me.”  If you really mean it in your heart and have confessed it with your mouth, you are one God calls “My people.”  That’s what God says.

This dream has resonated in me for a few weeks now.  I can’t get it off my mind.  God led me to the book of Amos.  I won’t take the time or space to go into what the book says.  You need to read it.  You need to read what God will do to those who have caused God’s people to flee from their communities.  It’s not a pretty sight.

In the days after the children of God are taken from this world, the days will get so difficult, painful and  torturous, people were wish they were dead. The days are coming that so much worse than what we see and experience today.

The good new is, we still have time to take up arms and fight.  I’m not talking about going out buying yourself a gun. (Not saying you shouldn’t either.)  I’m saying, take up arms in prayer.  “If my people will humble themselves and pray.”  “Watch and pray.”  The battle is against the spirits of anti-Christ, the Jezebel spirit, the powers and principalities and demonic force that have been unleashed in this world to try and stop the advancement of the Kingdom of Heaven on this earth by rendering God’s people ineffective and keeping those who do not know Christ from entering into his arms of salvation.

We need not be afraid.  God is greater than all of this.  God is looking for people who will call out to him and open those doors for him to loose his mighty angels to fight the battles in the heavenlies that will bring forth God’s perfect will on this earth.  A few good men and women.  I’ve been praying for years for Joel chapter 2 to manifest in this world.  It’s happening now.  Revival is coming.

God has put out a call to arms.  “People get ready, Jesus is coming, soon we’ll be going home.  People get ready, Jesus is coming, to take from the world His own.  People get ready.”

Forgiveness

I had a dream not too long ago. It was during the time I was having a hard time forgiving myself for something I did that hurt many and brought shame to my family.

The dream was about my dad, who has been in heaven since 1983. In the dream, The Lord showed me a time when our family was on vacation when I was young girl. My dad was a bit of a daredevil, not too risky, but an adventurer. We were standing on the edge of a mountain side and he threw a huge rock over the side just to see how long it would take before he heard the rock hit the ground below. While doing this, he lost his footing and his balance, and almost went over the edge himself. What a devastating tragedy it would’ve been for my family to have lost my dad when I was ten years old…..we were indeed blessed to have him alive until I was 19. The dream revealed to me how much this really shook my dad up. In the dream, my dad admitted he was being careless, and his carelessness was indeed a bit selfish as it would have cost us having our father and my mother having her husband, and he apologized.

That event really did happen in the real world of our lives many many years ago when we lived in Alaska, and my dad was in the Air Force. We were on vacation when this happened. I know how scary it was for us, but I never knew the impact it had on my dad. It made a real impact on me how important it is to God that we understand how on this earth when we make mistakes–and sometimes we make extraordinarily huge mistakes–that they affect not only ourselves, but others, more importantly sometimes our families.

It is important that we forgive ourselves. But it is just as important we forgive others for their mistakes and how it has affected us. God takes real issue with this.

We forgive others so God will forgive us. Truthfully, who are we not to forgive others, when God has forgiven us of so much. Forgive, so bitterness does not take root and defile many.

Family is everything…….

Learning to Let Go


Learning to Let Go

Trust the Lord with all your heart and lean not to your own understanding. Acknowledge him in all your ways, and he will direct your paths. Proverbs 3:5, 6.

It was early 2015.  I was in a season of fasting with the upcoming election campaigns.  The Lord began showing me many things through dreams and visions.  All in all, God is sovereign and he does not delay in his return as some might think. His delay is so more people will be saved in the great harvest of souls that is soon coming.  He is raising up a remnant to go forth and spread the gospel of his truth and love.

One early morning, about 3 a.m., I woke up and knew the Lord was there. I began praying in the spirit. I then lifted my hand to the heavens and started singing, “He leadeth me, He leadeth me, by his own hand He leadeth me.  His faithful follower I would be, for by His hand, He leadeth me.”  God was leading me on a new beginning, a new level and I purposed in my heart I would hold on to his hand and never let it go.

The Lord knows the end from the beginning. Isaiah 46:9, 10:  “I am God, and there is no other, I am God, and there is none like me.  I make known the end from the beginning, from ancient times, what is still to come.  I say: My purpose will stand, and I will do all that I please.”

God is still working.  One step at a time.   He often reminds me of the time when my daughter had married her first husband. It was February 2009.  It was as if the marriage was doomed before it began. He asked me for her hand in marriage.  I said, “Not now. Not yet. I don’t believe either of you are ready.”  With the first major “mama had to put her foot down” after him asking for her hand in marriage, her with her stubbornness and him with his arrogance, they decided overnight to get married at the Justice of Peace.

Isaiah tells us God will make the crooked places straight and the rough places smooth. Well, this never quite manifested in their marriage. Their first major knock down drag out happened on their honeymoon…..and thereafter every week for roughly three months. Every week, I got a phone call.  Every week.  One time, he brought her home with her stuff and dropped her off with me and said, “I’m done.” To say it was tumultuous was putting it mildly.

Then Easter came.  I was one of the keyboard players at our church in Arkadelphia, AR. During Holy Week, we gathered at a different church during the lunch hour to worship God and celebrate new life in Christ through the power of the resurrection from the grave.  I was completely worn out. I was so stressed, I couldn’t even speak about what was going on.  I felt as if I would have a breakdown.  I must have looked completely spent, because my pastor said he was very concerned about me.

I went home that day and sat on the back deck of my mother’s house.  I cried out to the Lord, admitting I had made many mistakes with my daughter and confessed my sins.  I then admitted to God I simply couldn’t do it anymore.  I couldn’t stand seeing what was happening to her but she wouldn’t leave him.  I was so exhausted from constantly being pulled into their situation I was struggling to give my son the attention he needed. I told God I was letting her go.  She was grown.  I still loved her completely but she had to make her own decisions now and by those decisions she would have to live.  I knew I would always be there for her but I simply couldn’t handle being tossed back and forth emotionally and mentally.

At that every moment, the Lord spoke to me in an audible voice.  He said, “You will have all the desires of your heart. You will have all your hopes and dreams.”

Yes, scripture in Psalm 37:4 tells us when we delight ourselves in the Lord, he will give us the desire of our hearts.  Of course, when we delight ourselves in the Lord, our desires become more like his desires for us.  Even so, when God takes the time to audibly speak that to you—this word resonated with such power!  Psalm 5:4 says wickedness cannot stay in the presence of God.  I felt the presence of God with so much power.  I pondered how after all I had done wrong, could God still tell me I would have all the desires of my heart and all my hopes and dreams.  Because……God desires his good for every part of us.  He desires our whole heart.  He doesn’t want us to hold anything back from him.  In this case, our children is a gift from God. We are given them for a short period of time and he expects us to raise them in the way he says they should go. God trusts us with that. He also tells us he will reward our efforts—even when we make mistakes.  He desires to be the Lord of our lives—of my life, your life and even my daughter’s life.  I had to let her go for God to be able to do the complete work in her he desired to do.

Am I still “there” for my daughter?  Yes!  Absolutely!  But she is a grown woman and she had to learn how to live her life on her own without mom always being there to tell her what she should do.  God is able.  After all, God raised us, right?

During this season in early 2015, the Lord asked me what I wanted him to do.  He said, “Just ask.”  I listed the many desires he had developed in me of seeing people and nations set free from bondage and walk in the light of his salvation. He listed as I rambled on and on. Then he said, “Where much is given, much is required.”  Well, well, well.  Profound silence.  It’s that moment when you realize your desires have become God’s desires for you.  But…..he wants all of you.  He must have all of you, an undivided heart, to accomplish his purpose in your life.

Today, I remind God often saying, “Remember, you said you would give me all the desires of my heart and all my hopes and dreams.  Well…..”  Me and God are good that way.  Does that mean God will give me anything I want.  Probably not.  Actually some things I may want may well not be God’s best for me, and actually that’s what I really want–God’s best for me.  For clarification, God is not someone who sits waiting to grant us every wish, like that of the perverbial genie in a bottle.  God created us to be in a relationship with him.  With any relationship, it’s a two-way street.  My goal is to be walking with God on the same side of the street, going the same direction with him. As most of my desires are for the welfare of others, I do have many of my own desires, hopes and dreams that stay tucked away in my heart and firmly seated in God’s keeping hand. Of course, they evolve and change.  Such is the way of God. Although HE never changes, the world around us does, therefore, we need to be pliable to be usable by God.

Until then…..We continue to  “Dream a little dream, dream a little while, hmmm, hmmm”  (I really wish I knew the name of this song.  I think it’s a Steven Curtis Chapman song. It’s been stuck in my head for 15 years.  So…..if you know what that name of this song is, I would appreciate you letting me know so I can get it out of my head and sing it in its complete form.)

Learning to let go.   It’s a process that will continue until we are with him in heaven.

Blessings……..

The House That Love Built

The House That Love Built

Some things happen in our lives.  Some things happen around us.  Some things happen to us.  Some seem incidental.  Some are sombering.  Some are life-changing moments.  But in each instance, one reflects on its inherent meaning.  Well…..at least sometimes we do.

It was a year ago, on April 29, 2017 when me and my two grandsons visited with my mother in our family’s home.  I was scheduled to rehearse for an upcoming music festival I was performing in and I just couldn’t resist the opportunity to spend precious moments with two extensions of my life who lovingly calls me “Granny.”

There had been a lot of storms in the days leading up to that weekend.  Straight-line winds with torrential rains causing floods damage to towns across the region.  But for the most part, we seemed to weather the storms fairly well.

The day started slow and peaceful. Just the way I love to start a Saturday morning.  The Spring air was cool, clean and crisp.  I love the country life.  The day ended well after all the “chores” were accomplished for the day.  There’s nothing like snuggling on the sofa wrapped in comfort by little arms who lovingly, yet silently say, “I love You.  You’re my hero.”  Those are the precious moments that speak unconditional love in a way no words can adequately express.  Life that is a part of you that extends beyond you.  What a great expression of true love.

Finally, we settled for the night.  As had become custom, my grandsons wouldn’t settle in a room by themselves, so they ended up crawling into bed with me.  The storms seemed to be slowing.  It was only soft rain when we went to bed that night.  Then it happened.  It was about 11:20 p.m.  I was awakened by a loud noise that sounded more like a explosion and a sucking sound while the picture window mom had built in place of what used to be glass windows was catapulted on top of me and my grandsons at about the same time the ceiling tiles and frames fell on top of us.

Instantly, I felt rain falling on us and could see lightening against the black sky with rumbles of thunder.  My first thought was, “Oh my God.  We’ve been hit by a tornado.”  I called out for my grandsons but they did not answer.  My second thought was, “Oh my God.  The tornado has sucked them out of the house.  I was finally able to free my arms from the debris to reach over to their side of the bed.  I could feel them, but they wouldn’t move and they wouldn’t speak.  They were in shock.  I grabbed hold of their arms and dragged them to my side of the bed and we were able to crawl out from underneath the wall and ceiling that had fallen on top of us.

I went to my mother’s room and yelled, “Call 911.  The house has been hit by a tornado.”  Something was significantly strange in this moment, as she was already fully dressed and sitting up in her bed.  Months later, she finally remembered that she had not yet gone to bed that night.  She was getting ready to do so when I came into the room.

We were able to find our shoes and get the boys dressed so we could leave the house.  While we were waiting for the emergency responders, I collapsed to my knees.  I couldn’t think of anything in that moment.  My mind went blank.  I remember not being able to feel anything. I couldn’t breathe.  I suddenly thought about our neighbor, a woman who lived in a single-wide trailer next door.  She was now living by herself after her husband passed away a few years earlier.  My anxiety intensified as my thoughts for her safety consumed me.  It was about that time the emergency responders came.  They went next door to check on our neighbor.  She was fine.  I asked the one of the emergency responders if they knew if the tornado had done much damage.  He looked at me and said, “It wasn’t a tornado.”  Later, he admitted he knew it wasn’t a tornado when they got the call.  There had not been any tornadoes in the area that night.

I went outside to my mother’s carport and saw this man standing at the end of her driveway.  At that moment, I still didn’t fully comprehend what I was looking at.  He was standing next to the massive 100-year-old oak tree that stood majestically in my mother’s front yard.  Except that it was no longer standing—it was the roots of this majestic tree he was standing next to.  It was surreal.  It was pitch black outside and we were rapidly being ushered out of the house so they could turn the power off so a fire couldn’t possibly ignite.

Daylight the next day revealed the cruel reality of what we had experienced just hours before.  There had been so much rain that softened the ground in the recent weeks.  Nature is a beast all its own.  It looked as if the wind picked up this tree and laid it over on top of the house.  It cut a line across the house and through the entire attic directly over the room me and my grandsons had been sleeping in.  My mother had built a concrete retaining wall about the tree to double as a bench and also hold flowers around the base of the tree.  All of which was destroyed in a matter of minutes.

Shock does a lot of things to a person.  For me, it wasn’t until I walked back through the house that I heard the crash and rumble of the tree and could remember feeling the jolt of it shaking the house on its foundation—in fact, it was such a jolt, the beams supporting the deck out my mother’s bedroom had folded underneath the deck.  The cinderblocks that enclosed the crawl space under the house had cracks in it.  The trusses in the roof were crushed and splintered over ¾ of the house.  The sounds haunted me for months.  I can still remember it as if it were yesterday.

The real miracle was realized when we saw how the retaining wall around the base of the tree had not been completely crumbled.  It was in fact holding the tree up, keeping the tree about three feet off the ground.  I experienced in that second the realization that me, my grandsons and my mother were alive because this wall crumbled at just the right place, just the right angle and degree, and stopped crumbling at just the right time to keep this massive tree from falling completely onto the ground and cutting the house completely in half. The force of the picture window mom had built in place of the windows blasting on top of us was actually our salvation, rather than hundreds of glass shards that would could not have resisted piercing into us after exploding from their frames.  Surreal cannot explain it.  Stunned.  Speechless.  Mind blowing silence.

The next days and weeks felt like walking through a time warp.  So many decisions.  So much work ahead.  So much cost.  We discovered the end of the house closest to the carport was still in good shape.  I wanted so much to keep that part of the house.  It was just too much to lose everything so suddenly.  I urged my mother to consider it.  It was too much for her to process.  The decision was made not to keep any of it.

This was our family’s home for 41 years at that time.  So many memories.  Every time I walked through that house I was flooded with memories.  This was a house that my family built.  We did not pay a contractor to come in and build this house that we simply moved our boxes and bodies into.  This was a house my parents paid someone to put into the dry.  We…..our family…..a dad, a mom, a brother, a sister and me finished it—completely, meaning insulation, sheetrock, paint, wallpaper, linoleum, ceiling tiles, every nail driven, every door hung, every piece of trim, everything.  It took years for us to finish our home because my parents paid for it as we went along.  This was the home that love and thousands of hours of sweat equity built.  I can still see my dad standing on a stepladder in the middle of the living room stapling up the squares of ceiling tile with his manual high-powered stapler.  How do you process losing the home where 41 years of memories are stored in every wall, every corner and in every step taken through each room when it wasn’t your choice to walk away from it?  I still can’t answer that question.  It is most assuredly the process of letting go.  Indeed—it is a process.

Now, one year later, my mother has finally gotten to the place she can walk through the process of taking the house down.  We had decided to ask the fire department to burn it for a fee.  This would have been the least expensive way to do it.  We tried to salvage everything that could be salvaged.  In the process of this, my mother was introduced to a family who could see the value in keeping the kitchen and dining room—the rooms at the end of the house I so desperately wanted to keep.  To my relief, they convinced my mother to keep it.  They will help my mother dispose of the rest of the house efficiently so as to maintain the integrity of the end of the house that was spared utter destruction.  Everything else was too far gone to even attempt to salvage.  But the heart of the house—that part of the house that held the heart and soul of family meals and gatherings and all the great memories that go with it will be spared.  I am grateful beyond my ability to express.

Life is precious.  Life is a journey.  When we hold on too tightly to that which is destined to change, we will eventually face the inability to journey through the change.  Life.  Love.  Good memories.  This is what is worth holding on to forever.

Every day is a new beginning.  Another opportunity.  Another chance to do something good—to make a good difference.  Some say they do not believe in God.  Some say they’re not sure if he exists.  Some are indifferent.  As for me…..I know I would have never gotten through what I’ve faced in my life without God.  My hope is in Him in Every New Beginning.

Update:  5/19/2018

As with any good story, there is always a happy ending.  At least there should be.  Such is the case with this one.  It turns out the family whom God sent to my mother was able to save exactly half of the house.  Not only the kitchen and dining room will be spared, but also the living room and a small bedroom and bath on the back of the house.  Hopefully, my mother will be able to move back into her home of 41 years in a few short months.  My excitement has been catapulted to that of sheer jubilation.  God.  Is. So. Good.  And worthy of ALL praise.

Now, I have a new dream for a new beginning.  I have a new hope tucked away deep in my heart—that is to rebuild the rest of the house that was destroyed by that storm.   Until then……..

You Alone Are Worthy–The Story Behind The Song

(Originally Posted 3-11-2018)

It was nine years ago at the time of this writing that I experienced things that for a long time was unable to talk about, much less did I feel I could adequately put them into words to describe what God showed me—what God was preparing me for.  But out of that experience came one of the greatest revelations and deliverance of strongholds that had competed within me seeking to keep me from realizing God greatest blessings and His destiny for my life.  As scripture says, in 2 Corinthians 10:3-4 (NIV), “For though we live in the world, we do not wage war as the world does. The weapons we fight with are not the weapons of the world. On the contrary, they have divine power to demolish strongholds.”  And even as much as I had sought God and allowed him to work in my soul and life, there was still some work that needed to be done.  This work is, in fact, an ongoing work as long as we are on this earth.  From this experience, came this song which I sing to God every day—“You alone are worthy to be praised!”  So…here goes.

It was the beginning of the year of 2009.  As it is common with each new year, I seek the Lord for scripture and his plan for the upcoming season of my life.  In this year, he reminded me of a time I came into the New Year of 2002 with “Delight yourself with the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart” and reminded me of what he called me to do.  The Lord then spoke to me and said, “It’s time. Get ready.”  The Lord led me to begin to fast and pray during a season he was preparing me for the beginning of a new phase of my life and ministry.  I counseled with my pastor’s wife and told her what God was speaking to me.  It was in this season God gave me a new, fresh anointing that came upon me that I had never walked in before.  God’s words were pouring out of me like a river—like the time I experienced being on the mountaintop with God, talking face to face with him and walking side by side with him for what seemed like lasted for months several years ago.  It was supernatural.  It was incredible.  It was life changing.  It was glorious and so vividly real.

I learned many things during this season.  One of which is of utmost importance.  Seek a prayer covering when you are fasting. You absolutely need a person(s) to keep you covered in the protective covering of prayer while you are emptying yourself and interceding on the behalf of others and/or yourself. You need this covering to stave off the unforeseen (but should be expected) attacks and devises of the enemy to thwart off the work of the Father and extinguish the fiery missiles that will be aimed at you in a mission to render you unable to see, hear and discern clearly what the Lord will show you during this season of fasting and prayer.  We war against the power and principalities of the unseen world. We succeed in pulling down these strongholds through the word of God and as Matthew 17:21 says, some of these only come by prayer and fasting (KJV).

It became an intense season.  I was drawn deeply into the spirit realm. At one point, I was awakened by a demonic presence that was swirling about me. I jumped out of bed and began quoting 2 Peter 2:1-22, realizing it God was showing me how Satan had sent forth many false prophets and in this passage of scripture, God painstakingly describes their characteristics and for us to be aware and discern their destructive nature. It was pointed out to me in verse 19 that these false prophets “promise them freedom, while they themselves are slaves of depravity—for a man is a slave to whatever has mastered him.”  I prayed for what seemed like half the night against the powers and principalities who have send these agents of lies, confusion and deception assigned to keep people from coming to know the true love and grace of God.

I found myself praying for several different people during this time. One of which was a young woman who was hurting and convinced God was not real, did not care, so why should she.  I saw this woman in the spirit and I saw three demons rise up from within her—one came up from her right side, one from her left side and one from the middle. They had names, which I will not mention in this writing, but they were sent to literally suck the life and hope out of her.  I did not know her personally. All I could do was pray. But this I did. I prayed.

Have you ever felt like something was making fun of you? Laughing at you? Have you ever felt as if you were being taunted mentally or emotionally?  It was revealed to me the source from which it comes.  You got it!  They are little imps—little evil spirits that literally cause you to feel as if you are the biggest loser, low life or jerk that exists on the planet. They are the ones who are responsible for making you feel as if you are the laughing stock of your peers for having an as sundry of shortcomings—you name it, they are responsible for its presence in your mind and emotions.  The only way to overcome it is to combat the lies with positive truths. And you need to speak them out loud so your mind can engage in their existence and so it will get into your heart so you know your worth and that you are valued and worthy of good things and worthy of love.

At one point, I was taken deep into the spirit of darkness.  I felt as if I was being pulled down and down.  There was no light. The darkness was so dark, it was suffocating.  I could smell a stench so disgusting it made my stomach turn and took my breath, although I continued to breathe.  I could hear screams and shrieks so shrill it pierced your ears with striking pain and it made the hair on your head hurt at the roots.  There was no bottom.  There were no walls or anything to assimilate with familiarity. There was only torment and endless pain. I could hear a what I perceived as rushing presence, rushing to overtake me.

I suddenly woke up and was terrified.  I didn’t know what was coming against me. I couldn’t see anything. I could only feel the presence of evil. Even awake, I felt as if it was still coming after me. In a split second I cried out, “What is it? Jesus!” In that instant, I literally saw the shadow of Jesus rise up from my side and surround me and instantly, the fear was gone and I felt peace and comfort as I rested in the shadow of his presence.  Psalm 91:1, 2 says, “He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.  I will say of the Lord, He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust.”  I knew in that moment, my safety, protection and well being was provided through being covered in the presence of the Almighty.  I was safe in the arms of Jesus.  It was an incredibly real, visible display of the darkness as described in Matthew 25:30 and Matthew 22:13 “Then the king said to the servants, “Bind him hand and foot, and throw him into the outer darkness; in that place there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth.”

Separation from God renders you into utter darkness.  There are many scriptures that speak about darkness. Many believe there is no hell, and the hell that Bible speaks of is the earth we live in today.  I would have to disagree.  I’ve seen it.  I’ve heard the cries of torment of those who have refused to accept that Jesus gave his life as the atoning sacrifice for their sin.  It’s so simple.  As 1 John 1:5 says, “This is the message we have heard from Him and announce to you, that God is light, and in Him there is no darkness at all.” Well then. If God is light and there is no darkness, doesn’t it stand to reason that if we experience darkness, it is not from God—since God is light and in Him there is no darkness?  I believe so. Of course, there are perhaps at least a million different definitions of what darkness is.  My purpose in this writing, however, is to describe those things God showed me during this time.

It was during this time I realized God was not holding me back and keeping me from realizing His promises in my life because of the mistakes I made. It was indeed strongholds of doubt, fear, misunderstanding his word, and (as he most recently showed me again) Matthew 23, which I have referred to as a “Pharisee spirit.”  I challenge you to read it.  We’ve all been subjected to this in some form or fashion.  The Lord has been very diligent in teaching me through this that “sword of truth” cuts both ways. Be sure your house is in check before you start trying to get someone else’s house in order. There are a plethora of little evil spirits and demons at work in this arena. I’ve seen them.  I’ve heard them.  You have too.  Satan puts thoughts in our minds to either play against the truth or cast a shadow of doubt on the sender of God’s truth. Unfortunately, much of the time, we fail to recognize that sometimes subtle yet intrusive voice and wake up one day wondering why the very thing we did not want to happen has happened.  Good grief.  As Jesus said in Luke 9:41 “O unbelieving and perverse generation,” Jesus replied, “how long shall I stay with you and put up with you?”  One can say they do not believe there are actual demons and evil spirits at work against us, but then again, perhaps those are the same that says there is no God and no Satan.  This would be a great deception given by a great false prophet.  One of which we all should be aware and on the lookout for.

I would also caution you to remember, we all filter through a different lens. I’ve learned when God’s word is being given, there are many things at play against an effective delivery and an effective reception. We MUST be aware of all these things.  Just as God show no favoritism, neither does Satan.

Hell is real.  On the flip side.  Heaven is real.  I’ve seen shown this too.  I’ve seen the river of life that flows through heaven.  I’ve seen tall, lush green meadows and colors that breathe life that so vivid and bright it exudes peace and joy. I’ve seen Jesus standing in the presence of the 24 thrones in heaven as described in the book of Revelation. I’ve heard children laughing and singing. I’ve seen some in my family who have gone before me.  You might think this is hard to believe—in fact, rather unbelievable.  Sounds like something out of a movie or a good book. Right?  Believe me when I say, I don’t know why God chose to show me these things, but I can honestly say seeing my children in heaven who have gone before me breathed life into me and allowed me to forgive myself for what I did.  Heaven is perfect.  Heaven is perfect peace. And in that perfection, we are all made completely whole.

It has been said to me many times, “I’m not religious.” That’s great!  Neither am I!  And neither is God!  He is in fact about love, grace, forgiveness and relationship. It is in his presence we live in his grace. This grace comes only through Jesus Christ.  Jesus is the light and the life that develops us—if we choose to believe.

We are in the end times.  Jesus is coming back soon.  My message is simple.  Hell is real.  Heaven is real. God is love.  So much he sent his only son, Jesus, to give his life as an atoning sacrifice for our sins and when we accept that, we can know and be assured we will spend all eternity with him in heaven.  If a person chooses not to accept Jesus’ sacrifice for their life, then they instead choose to live an eternity separated from God in utter darkness.

The Lord revealed to me during that season of the time when I was saved at nine years old. I knew at that time God would use me in music. I started playing piano when I was nine years old.  I started playing Beethoven a few months after I started playing. I learned to play Fur Elise and Beethoven’s 5th Symphony.  My teacher called me “the next Liberace.” I wasn’t so moved with what she said, I simply loved playing the piano. Making music took me to a place no one else could invade. It was my secret place of peace, contentment and fulfillment.  I continued to study as time and my parent’s ability to pay for lessons allowed. By the time I was in college, I had developed my own style.  Without going into the many times my hands and desire to play were attacked, and I can assure you they were many, it is by God’s grace, I still play and I still love to play. I can’t say I continued to study like I did in the beginning and for a time after that, but I am thankful I never stopped playing. I’ll never really know where piano might have taken me had I not stopped studying, but I can say those strongholds that once threatened to take the fulfillment of playing my beloved instrument are gone. They were overcome during this season.

There are many reasons we struggle while we are on this earth.  Jesus came so we would have life and have it abundantly.  As long as we are living on this earth, there will always be that force that tries to take away the gifts and promises God made to you. When we realize the war we are up against and learn to use the weapons of effective warfare, we will then realize God’s power working on our behalf and will be able to shut down the attacks of Satan that comes against us.  It was during this season of my life God took me through the refiner’s fire and delivered me from mental and emotional bondage that had perpetuated me smoking cigarettes for years and empowered me to take control over my health.  It was also after this season, I made my Abrahamic journey into a foreign land far away from family and the life I had known, into the new life God prepared for me.  A journey I am still fully engaged in.

I learned many things through that season in 2009. Some things come only through fasting and prayer.  From this experience, I’ve learned to make fasting and prayer a continued part of my life.

God tells us that when we say the Name of Jesus, demons have to flee.  It is in our praise that God is exalted and lifted high. It is through our praise we receive miracles. It is through our praise that the enemy in our life is defeated.  It is through God’s gift to us we are saved and delivered from the works of evil. His name is Jesus. And it is through that season in 2009 God gave me this song.

Jesus…You alone are worthy of our praise.